The Strangers

Yes, the sunglasses...

I have been wearing them for so long that I have forgotten what the true colors are like.

It seems as if all I know is this tainted world painted in shades of yellow and brown, a twisted, burnt remainder of what I used to know.

Often I wonder where the colors have gone.

Every time I open my eyes I find myself once again looking through these twisted glasses which paint my world in drab colors, burdening my Soul with a view of a world which is the reverse of where I come from.

The beauty of my home is right here at my fingertips, but I can't grab it, I can't draw myself back into the real world, I just can't release myself from this bad dream.

I know I have to wait until my Father wakes me up, and until then I am stuck in the world of these dream-glasses blocking out the beauty my heart longs for.

Sometimes I see glimpses of the beauty of my home.

As if an invisible hand reached out and removed the glasses which create the thick, rusty blanket of impenetrable smog separating me from the beauty of the real world.

These are the few precious moments when the world is smiling as if no Shadows exist, moments I almost feel as if I am back home where beauty can be found everywhere.

Back home there are no Shadows seeking to rob the people of the beauty of the Light.

That is the place where the brown-yellowish smog resting upon this world cannot exist, and the glasses are robbed from their power to hide and distort the beauty.

Yet here in this strange land the streets are filled with Shadows sliding in the Dark, whispering quietly to come to an agreement which of the minds of the sleepwalkers they shall invade.

They reduce people to zombies acting out their programmed conditioning, creatures of instinct.
It's a land where the misty cold chills the bones, and warmth becomes an insufferable humid heat.

It's a land of extremes where vampires rule and seek to devour the newcomers on the scene, not just to feed on them, but to extinguish any remnant of Light and create offspring of Darkness, creatures just like them.

The only times I can recall what it is like to see without the glasses is when I shut myself off from this world, close my eyes and yearn with all my heart for my Creator and find Him there where He always was, is and will be.

Yet even then the costume seeks to interfere with my mind and project the ugly brown stain of the sunglasses across my Spirit, so that it is difficult to see the pristine untainted view the eyes of my Spirit can give me.

I yearn to live in that world again and imbibe the fresh colors of the real world, not having to live in the distortion created by the brown-yellowish lenses of fiction.

Strange how the easiest and most natural thing has become so difficult only because of these twisted glasses which obscure a clear view, and this puppet costume obstructing my walk.

Who in his right mind would want to make the brown-yellowish muck I see through these glasses his home?

Who would want to remain a puppet living in an illusion of freedom for all his Life?

The glasses rob me of the beauty of Yah's true colors.

These colors are so close and yet beyond my reach because of these glasses I wear.

It's like walking around in a bowl made of glass.

You can see the world outside, yet you can't touch it, you can't smell it.

It is right here in front of us, but these horrible glasses keep it out of reach.

That is what we have to put up with, living in a state of limbo.

We belong to Heaven, yet we cannot get back home because we are locked into the Flesh, we do not belong in the kingdom of Evil, yet we have to abide here in this warzone only to suffer rejection, ostracization, animosity, lies, slander, stabs, humiliation, abuse.

Still, against all odds YHWH's own find Truth in a sea of lies, they survive where they should have perished, they are strong although they are the weakest in the ways of this world, they endure and persist in spite of the pain where others would have killed themselves, they are alienated from the puppet costume where others merge with the costume.

But then again, YHWH's children never were compatible with the puppet costume, whereas the children of the Evil One fit perfectly in the outfit.

We have a mighty Father Who shows His power in His own children in this world.

We are a living testimony of YHWH's might, because we exist in a place which has no tolerance for our existence so that our very presence in the Evil Empire becomes an act of defiance against the alleged power and authority of the Evil One.

Yet even though I trust YHWH and I know I am here on Earth not for my own purpose but for His, I cannot help but wonder at times why I have to remain here behind the enemy's lines when the days grow Dark and all I seem to encounter in Life is obstruction and animosity.

That is the downside YHWH's own have to endure: we do not belong here, and the more we grow in intimacy with YHWH, the more we stick out like sore thumbs in the Babel's empire as ultimate misfits.

From early childhood I have been very aware of being an outsider, even though I lacked awareness of what it was that I had been excluded from.
Yet as time went by and Truth revealed the ugly structure of exploitation on the stage of Life, the unfolding awareness became painfully obvious in the strongly increased adversity I encountered.

Truth comes at a price.

The Truth sets us free indeed, free from deception.

But if you live in a system which is built on deception, the freedom from deception manifests in the form of maturing into the role of misfit and outcast.

Knowing the Truth means you can no longer hide your head in the sand of oblivion.

It means you see the ugliness of Evil and its power in this world in all its fullness, and whereas YHWH's children come into this world expecting Good, the naivety gradually wears off as they encounter an ongoing series of onslaughts on their character and their persona.

The naivety leaves as awareness enters, and the awareness is kindled by Truth until Truth, like leaven, permeates the entire dough of our Life on Earth and causes us to become living manifestations of Truth, terrorists in the empire of the Lie.
Every word of Truth spoken in this empire is a bombshell capable of destroying strongholds of Falsehood, and that is why YHWH's own are targeted as terrorists in Babel's Evil Empire.

The more we grow into manifestations of YHWH's Truth, the more we are unplugged from the matrix, the greater the dissonance becomes between who we are and what the world is, and this dissonance becomes very apparent and painful when we are subjected to ridicule, humiliation, cruelty, attacks, rejection and persecution.

How Babel loves to humiliate us by appointing talentless, mean-spirited vessels of Evil in positions of authority and subjecting YHWH's talented bright children to that authority.

It is a clash of  worlds where fiction seems to have the upper hand over reality, but nothing could be further from the Truth.

As I wrote, Truth sets us free, but it also brings us the pain of the clash.

I know that in order for faith to grow it needs to be stressed, and the stress always comes in the form of the Lie manifesting in our lives.

If we pray and believe, yet we see the opposite of what we believe and pray come to pass in our Life, then our faith is challenged.

If we encounter constant adversity in others and we come to loathe Life because it seems to bring us nothing but injustice and pain, inevitably the quiet suggestion rises in our mind, 'why don't you simply give in and take it easy?', 'why don't you abandon your faith which does not seem to work and say yes?', 'why don't you join the others and be part of the team?'

Let me tell you, I have been surprised at times when I had to endure suffering and unanswered prayers, and suddenly the suggestion would rise in my mind to 'let go and give in, stop the resistance and things will go easier for you, simply say 'YES' to me'.
'Yes to ME?'
Shadows downloading a broadcast into my mind?

It is so weird how these messages seem to float into your mind, as if a radio station sends out a specially formatted broadcast and your mind is a receiver into which the broadcast is downloaded.

First your Life is brought to ruin because the Adversary uses the power he has to manipulate your circumstances so that the Lie manifests in your Life as a physical, tangible 'truth', then the radio station transmits its message in order to reverse your faith.

Do you believe the 'reality of your life and the failure of your faith', or will you persist in looking through the eyes of the Spirit and persist in faith, rejecting the false reality of the circumstances because they are brought about through manipulation performed by hidden Shadows of the Dark?

'Why should you hang on to a Father Who says He loves you, but Who does nothing to help you out of your misery, Who tells everyone that He will bless and reward those who put their faith in Him, yet Who rewards you with curses and punishment, Who seems to respond to your trust and faithfullness with betrayal and treachery, Who seems to turn a deaf ear to your earnest prayers, Who seems to carrry a cold, uncaring stone where you expected a loving heart from your Father?'

That is how the Satan turns YHWH against you, just as he turned YHWH against Job.
He waits until he has succeeded in turning the feelings and emotions of your Body against you, and then proceeds to surf the wave he created with his suggestions.

But you MUST understand how important it is to hang on in spite of the Lie manifesting in your Life, because the reason why the Adversary has been given the power to manifest the Lie in your Life is because YHWH uses him to perfect you in faith and carve out your personality, so that you come out of the process as a strong, caring and loving individual, and His power will shine in and through you into this Dark world.

You become a living manifestation of YHWH's supremacy over Evil and those who pose as gods of rebellion.

Don't worry about the Evil One, he cannot rob you of opportunity, prosperity and talents forever.

Trust in YHWH, and persist in Trust, even if He does not seem to be at home when you pray to Him.

He-really-IS-there.
It's just that your glasses are blocking your sight of Him.

Sometimes we have to go through a tunnel of Darkness where everything and everyone seem to turn against us.
Know this, that the tunnel has an end just as it had a beginning.
The tunnel can be long, it can be followed by a brief relief of Light right before a new long tunnel begins, so that the chain of tunnels can span a distance of years or even decades.
Do not allow tunnel-vision to capture your Soul by fixating on the ongoing adversity which seems to be relentless and without end, but rather persist in the knowledge of your heart that a tunnel WILL have an end, and you do not travel through the tunnel alone.
YHWH travels with you all the distance, watching over you at all times, even though you may feel at times as if He has taken a vacation.

The chain of tunnels is just a process of testing and drawing out your character, love and devotion to YHWH, and once you come out of the chain of tunnels you will have plenty of opportunity, space and the means to move ahead with your Life.
If I had written the book of Job, I would have chosen the subtitle 'The Tunnel'.
Job went through a very Dark tunnel where every aspect of his Life was turned against him, even his wife who told Job to turn his back on his Creator, even his health which departed from him, even his friends who dropped by to inform Job that, since YHWH never punishes the righteous, there must be hidden Sin in Job's storehouse.

Take a close look at what happened to Job after the tunnel, or the sequence of tunnels he went through.
He did not reject YHWH, he did not hate his friends although they behaved as fiends, and he endured to the best of his abilities.
Always trust the Creator and Sculptor of our character, and this is as much an encouragement  to me as it is to you.
I love YHWH with all my heart and Soul, and nothing else matters.
If you have experienced YHWH you KNOW that He cannot lie, He cannot deceive His own children, and you KNOW from personal experience that He brings warmth, love, joy, release.
He truly cares, and when I talk with Him I feel at home and completely at ease, even though He IS the King of Kings.
He truly is the best Dad you can possibly hope for, One who knows your heart and suffers with you, cheering you up and catching your tears in His compassionate hand.
He is the only One Who gives meaning to everything, and loving Him is all that matters.

Be glad when the Evil One punishes you even for the mere act of existing on Earth, because it means you are not of his seed.
Be glad when he blows the wind of adversity in your face, because it means you are not part of those who are driven by the Evil One's wind of prosperity in their backs.
Know that when the tunnel of Darkness is long and difficult, the reward will increase in proportion to the length and difficulty.
The tunnel serves to yield a hundredfold harvest in the real world of Heaven.

YHWH does not make mistakes where He allows us to be burdoned beyond our capacity.
We may have our break-downs, our moments when we simply give up and sit down in ashes, but this is just a passing phase.
We may be beaten and abused, but YHWH makes us stand up again and again, frustrating the Adversary endlessly since he is unable to destroy YHWH's children.

I assure you that what I write here is not the result of an empty, brainwashed mind repeating a memorization of positive sounding catchphrases designed to make you feel Good with false empty promises, but it comes from my own personal experience.

It does not mean that I don't complain to YHWH, quite the contrary.

I know I probably should complain less and pray and endure more, but often the pain inflicted upon my Soul drives me to raise a complaint before my Father, the injustice slapped in my face drives to ask Him why I have to remain in a place where I have been disconnected from its grid yet stuck in the costume belonging to the grid.

Disconnected yet still connected, Life on Earth feels like living in a state of limbo between Heaven and Earth.

The Evil One knows I have grown into a lost cause to his empire, yet he knew this time would come from the day I entered into the Flesh, just as he knew that you who love YHWH would become a liability to his empire sooner or later the moment you entered into the Flesh.

Because, we come from Heaven, and as such we were, are and always will remain persona non grata in the empire of the Evil One.

We are not the seed of the Adversary, and the Adversary does not take kindly to strangers.

Although Life brings us pain, there is consolation for us and joy surpassing any verbal description in YHWH's Ruach and His Salvation, Yahshua, in Whom we experience the presence of a Father who watches over us like a hawk.

In Him we are safe, in Him we find shelter, and in Him we find our Home.

When I experience YHWH's nearness, immense joy fills my heart even though my circumstances may be deplorable, yet when YHWH seems far off, there's grief, pain and sadness even though my circumstances may be the best one could possibly hope for.

In YHWH is my joy, my happiness, my hope, my everything, and that is why I want to emphasize and stress how important it is that you keep hanging on, in spite of what Babel is doing to your Life.

Don't believe in her lies because she was a liar from the beginning, and all she seeks to accomplish is to manipulate you into the choice to give in to her and turn yourself against YHWH.

If you do, the one who ruined your Life won, and the One who loves you and wanted to save your Life is cut off from you through your choice.

Know this, that YHWH NEVER loses one single Soul of His children, and He has a perfect track record.

Babel is all too aware of that.

We grow in spite of the circumstances of our lives into the individuals we were designed to be, or maybe I should say that, -since YHWH makes all things work for Good-, our circumstances help us grow into the individuals we were meant to be.

Babel sets up YHWH's own to become fuel for her dark ambition, so that we suffer under her exploitation, a game we are not even aware of when we grow up as children.

She uses her authority to engineer the circumstances of our lives with the sole purpose of destroying us.

Yet YHWH outsmarts the Adversary at every turn, and even though the Evil One sees the ongoing series of moves and counter-moves as part of an ongoing chess game, the moment will come when the Queen of Darkness goes down.

Until that time we live in a world driven by the cogs which keep the big wheel of the Lie in motion.

YHWH's children can never feel at home in this garbage dump of Evil which exists by the grace of the Life-force it is able to drain from us.

It is difficult for me to understand that so many people on Earth have accepted this brown-yellowish fantasy as their ultimate reality, and so incredibly few people are left standing apart from Babel's power grid.

How is it that they have completely forgotten the true colors of the real world, how is it that they have no difficulty in participating in a system which is vampiric in nature?

Have they lost their vision to the extent that the only thing they can see is this brown-yellowish fantasy?

Has their lack of vision made them inherit a permanent blindness for all eternity?

How can they feel at home in the junkyard painted by these sunglasses?

Is it because the brown-yellowish stage setting IS their highest reality, and they are nothing but props in a temporary dream?

Some of them have even bonded with the brown-yellowish perversion to such an extent that they seek to lock themselves into that fantasy world.

It only exists as a projection of the filter of the colored lenses of the sunglasses, yet they think it is real, they feel it is their home and their ultimate paradise.

Their blindness is the worst of all, because they will destroy, ruin, lie and kill for the sake of obtaining their imagined paradise upon the brown-yellow ashes, remainders of the people standing in the way of their paradise.

Their paradise is an exclusive club with a limited membership, so to make sure they were part of the elect they proceeded to eliminate the competition.

They paid for the tickets to paradise with the blood of the innocent, and yet they have not lost so much as one night sleep over it.

Their tunnel vision made them even more blind to the horror they were part of, staring themselves blind on the imaginations of their mind, their private castles in the brown-yellow clouds oozing down the black rain upon an ash-ridden world bathing in acid stench.

Thinking themselves to have perfect vision they have lost all sight of reality and reduced themselves to blind beggars in the damp, cold streets of hell's suburb.

Their paradise does not exist, nor will it ever exist, because it cannot exist.

It can never exist because it is part of a dream, and those who walk around in a dream state are sleepers walking on the edge of a cliff.

Only those who see through the Spirit can discern the danger of the cliff, yet the spiritual sleepwalkers remain oblivious to the danger as they walk towards its edge.

Blind as they are, they have put their complete trust in a stranger, fully aware that this stranger carries a reputation of being unreliable and a liar.

But because they have sold out to the Lie, they felt a strange familiarity of spirits with this stranger.

A kindred and familiar spirit is what they saw through their sunglasses, and they put their faith in the words of the stranger.

Yes, the sunglasses...

They shield the eyes from the Light of the Son.

Yet they who love the Sonshine quickly become tired of wearing the glasses.

They long to see the world basking in the Light of Heaven which the Son brings to us.

But there are others, who trust the words of the stranger, and they cannot bear the Light of the Son.

They have embraced the brown-yellowish world of the stranger and put their faith in his lying words.

The glasses have become their home, their reality, and the Light of the Son their fiction.

The stranger has become their friend, and the Son their stranger.

To them Truth truly is stranger than fiction, for they are fiction.
Like their father, the stranger, they became vampires unable to tolerate the Light of the Son.

Yet consider this, you who have embraced the stranger and cling to the hope of her words: Babel's paradise is her home for the synthetic man, not for man carrying the mark of YHWH's DNA.

You as you are in the Flesh will be obsolete in her world.

Her world is a dream, a world of fiction where worshippers of the Lie are trapped in the circuits of a simulation once YHWH pulls the switch.

Don't you know how this entire physical realm can be turned off by YHWH with the ease of a flick of a switch?

Today's Earth-reality is the result of wearing sunglasses which paint the world in dualistic colors.

When someone removes your sunglasses, suddenly you realize that the view through the sunglasses was artificial, a side-effect caused by the lenses of the glasses.

The taints of brown and yellow never existed for they were produced by the lens of the glasses.

You wish to create a lasting home for yourselves in the imaginary world of the sunglasses?

You seek to build your paradise upon the ashes of dead corpses and cement the bricks of your palace with the blood of the innocent?

You hope to have your private sanctuary in an empire which is to be the home of a synthetic man with no human Soul?

You have so much confidence in Babel that she is able to pull this off, in spite of the fact that she has failed over and over again?

If so, the misery you chose is well deserved.

The misplaced belief in the words of the stranger turns us into strangers to YHWH's Word and an alien to His joyous reality.

To make a dream our home, an eternal coma as our escape route, isn't that the ultimate self-delusion and an example of extreme stupidity?

Who in his right mind would voluntarily choose for eternal dementia?

Yet even as I write these words I know all too well that there are those who will never be able to relate to the message these words convey.

Because the stranger is their father, and his fantasy is their reality.

They trust the father of lies, and give him custody over their lives.

They ARE the sunglasses, they ARE the puppets, because they have been born as puppets, and their highest reality is the vision painted by their sunglasses.

The Many Selves

Chances are that you have come across slogans like 'get in touch with yourself', 'find yourself', 'be true to yourself', candy to inspire a positive attitude making you 'feel good'.

And of course many 'feel good' gurus turn the candy into a profitable business by providing the public with these ego-boosts.

Yet although these catchphrases may sound very positive and good on the surface, there is one important crucial question which needs to be asked before these phrases can be assessed: what is 'self'?

'Self' is the concept of an identity.

Whatever you identify with is what becomes part of YOU, and that is where the problem lies.

The slogans I mentioned may sound good, but if you identify with corruption, then being 'true to yourself' implies acting out a corrupt nature, a Lie.

And if you are true to the Lie, then 'getting in touch with yourself and being true to yourself' means your entire Life becomes a reflection of the Lie, and the slogan which looked like a positive inspiration actually becomes a gateway into self-destruction.

There IS a true self, a self (or identity) which YHWH gave us, a self which is uncorrupted and untainted by the Lie.

It is a self which is rooted in the Creator of our conscience and seeks to act out what is Good, right and true, living by the standards designed by YHWH. 

There is however another self, a self which is the result of being exposed to corruption in our environment, the family into which we are born, the school we attend, the friends we associate with, the workplace where we earn a living, the TV set which programs our mind, the artist we admire, etc.

I have explained how hypnosis works by grace of the fact that we ARE already hypnotized by our wrong reaction to Life's pressures,

The hypnosis is the result of being exposed to a flawed cultural setting through which the Lie manifests and reproduces itself in us. 

Programming man's mind is achieved by creating links in the physical brain, and the way these links are created is by exposing man's senses to the message promulgated by for example the TV station.

The programming on TV becomes the transmitter, and the viewer's brain the receiver.

The physical senses of sight and hearing become the interfaces through which the input originating from the TV set enters the brain, where it is recorded in neurons, and our reactions on a conscious and subconscious level determine the strength of the connections between different neurons and their power to influence us, either on a conscious or sub-conscious level.

Subliminal messages are information packages designed to escape conscious detection of their content, so that they are able to register in neurons and become part of a network of neurons without any awareness on our part.

The area of linguistic programming deals with the area of how language and the way it is spoken, its timing and the choice of words, are part of programming the minds of people.

Linguistic programming creates real physical links in the human brain between neurons where the information of the programming has been stored.

If you will, add up the multitude of moments we were exposed to the flaws in our environment which elicited a wrong reaction on our part, add to this the moments we have been exposed to subliminal messages on the TV set, the MP3's, and so forth, and take into consideration that we are born with a basic flaw which opens up our mind to a destructive element called Evil.

Then ask yourself the question: who am I?

What is your 'self'?

Surely you agree with me that if I toss the phrase that you should be 'true to yourself' I am stating an absurdity if I do not place this slogan in a proper frame of reference?

Which 'self' am I referring to?

Am I not leaving out the most important element, which is the question of what your 'TRUE self' is?

The awakening to your 'true self' is the result of a choice your make in your Soul.

If you identify with corruption and you reject YHWH's Spirit, His Ruach, then your concept of a 'true self' equals a 'corrupt self' in the absence of YHWH's absolute standard, a 'self' which embraces the Lie and Destruction.

From YHWH's absolute perspective your 'true self' is a 'false self' which you have embraced as your 'true self', and your TRUE 'true self' is lost as a result.

Without YHWH's input through His Ruach we lack the absolute frame of reference which allows us to know what our 'true self' is, and as a result we are fixated on a concept of 'self' which is the result of the Lie acting through the programming we were exposed to.

I have often explained how we are born with a Spirit which wants to do Good, at least, MOST of us have been born with a Spirit which is not fallen, but this Spirit enters a physical Body which carries the legacy of Sin, meaning that it acts as a conduit for the destructive power of Evil.

The moment the Spirit is locked into the physical experience it is separated from YHWH by the prison wall of the physical Body, yet it retains the knowledge of (the intimacy with) what is Good.

Since our Soul is connected to both the Spirit and the Body we experience a tug of war between the two forces of Good and Evil within.

In other words, the moment we enter the Flesh is the moment we suddenly have two selves, one 'TRUE self' of the Spirit and one 'FALSE self' of the Flesh, a spiritual and a carnal identity.

Part of our purpose on Earth is to learn to identify with the 'true self'.

YHWH created a special procedure for us to be restored to a purified identity, our 'true self'.

This procedure is activated through belief in the Man He sent to be our Savior: Yahshua.

The Light of the Father dwells in Him so that we can identify with that Light and be restored to that Light.

This means that when we identify with that Light as our home, our 'true self', we are restored to a pure identity in Him.

That is the moment when a phrase like 'being true to yourself' begins to make sense.

Our choice to believe in Yahshua saves us, and our choice for His Salvation sets a process in motion where we are being restored to a pure identity by constantly rejecting the Lie and embracing Truth.

The problem with many New Age type philosophies is that the way to the 'restored self' which I just described is paved by esoteric 'wisdom', as if knowledge can save us and restore us to our 'true self'.

They equal the Light of YHWH to the enlightenment of knowledge, but this is exactly the Lie the Adversary held up to Adam and Eve: 'leave behind your ignorance and embrace the knowledge of Good and Evil so that you can be god too'.

Being 'true to yourself' in the New Age philosophy is the identification with this Lie, and that is how it becomes a deadly poison setting you up for Destruction through your identification with corruption in the form of a false, pseudo self which seeks to create its own liberation through wisdom and knowledge, a Gnostic ladder reaching into a false image of Heaven.

You cannot by-pass YHWH's construct of Salvation, no matter how hard you try.

You can never become a '1' again after being turned into a '0', regardless of how many wisdom quotes you may put on your webpage.

Without YHWH these quotes become just part of the New Age stairway to Heaven, which actually is the Dark Loft dressed up as Heaven.

YHWH created ONE way only for us to be restored, a way which seems like folly to the intellectually oriented mind: belief in a Man the Father sent so that by believing in that Light, we become part of that Light.

BELIEF is the magnet drawing a Soul to that which the Soul has chosen to accept, and the Souls of YHWH's own are drawn to Him in His Yahshua with a strong magnetic pull which defies description, yet which is undeniably real to YHWH's own.

Our problem as human beings is that we are schizophrenic.

At the root level we carry two conflicting identities inside which are mutually exclusive and shielded from each other, very much in the way someone might split up into different personalities after being exposed to a severe trauma in order to be able to mentally survive the shock of the trauma.

Each of these personalities takes a piece of the trauma it is able to deal with, so that the overwhelming monstrosity of the trauma is broken down into pieces the victim is able to come to terms with.

The fractured personality which is split into different and compartmentalized 'selves' can be the effect of an assault of an agent of Evil of such proportions, that the target of the assault is unable to come up with the right kind of resistance against the assault.

The result is a wrong way to defend the Soul by creating different identities, safety havens where the victim can hide from the Evil invasion of the Soul.

The problem is that the moment Evil succeeds shaping someone's identity, even fracturing an identity as the result of severe trauma, then the presence of Evil caused by the wrong response (which is Sin) opens the victim up to Evil Spirits.

The safety havens of the different identities resulting from a fractured personality can become habitats for Evil Spirits. 

Sin is like a piece of software code which de-activates the firewall of the Soul so that unwanted intruders are able to get in.

Likewise, the compartmentalized personalities, the different selves, lend themselves perfectly as hide-outs for demonic entities, like virtual tents in the physical Body where unwanted Evil beings can take up residence.

Thus, a fractured personality can lead to possession by many Evil Spirits, like Legion in the Bible, and merging with the artificially created identities then equals merging with Evil Spirits.

This kind of possession can never be cured by means of any psychotherapy or other kind of medical treatment.

The only way this possession can be reversed is by exorcism caused by belief in Yahshua.

That is when the Evil Spirits have to vacate their chosen premises, and the possessed person is set free instantly from any indwelling Evil Spirits.

The memories of the trauma still are present in the form of neurons, and these neurons are still organized in different compartments which gave rise to different personalities, but the presence of Evil Spirits has been eliminated, and the healing can begin.

This person will experience Yahshua's liberation as if he or she has taken a spiritual shower which washed away all the dirt, and that is the reason why baptism, which washes away the dirt from the Body, was chosen as a symbolic expression of Yahshua's work.

Although the spiritual cleansing Yahshua performs is not dependent on an external baptism, the external baptism IS dependent on Yahshua's spiritual cleansing, because without it the ritual of baptism becomes an ordinary shower which changes nothing for anyone's Life.

Man's great trauma is the trauma of Sin.

It caused us to split into two basic identities which are mutually exclusive.

An identity of Evil came into existence next to an identity of Good.

The identity of the Spirit is unable to tolerate the element of Evil, because it carries the element of Good.

The identity of the Flesh is unable to identify with the element of Good, because it is part of the domain of Evil, the result of the choice to identify and thus merge with rebellion against what is Good.

That is why the 'self of Evil' had to split off and cause us to become compartmentalized in two distinctly different selves, one which is able to deal with and process the element of Evil, and the other which is able to process the element of Good.

In our Soul we cross from one personality into the other, and Salvation implies that we cross over from the artificial identity of Evil, which came into existence as a result of the first trauma, into the identity of Good, the real and original identity.

Our choice of identification decides whether our Soul is drawn out of the artificial personality into unity with YHWH, or whether it is drawn into the artificial self where it exists in disparity with YHWH, something which can never exist in the true reality where YHWH is, since there is no existence outside of YHWH, yes, there is no 'outside YHWH'.

Our plight is the co-existence on the most basic level of these two identities, or two selves within our being, our Soul.

The personality of Good is one and cannot fracture, but the identity of Evil is capable of splitting itself up in many different elements like a tree with many branches, all having in common that they have grown out of the original stem of Evil within us.

The result is that we have two 'basic selves' of Good and Evil, and out of the 'Evil self' can grow many other selves by means of the programming we were exposed to, like masks worn by the Soul.

Which one will you pick when someone urges you to be 'true to yourself'?  

What meaning does this phrase have if it is not defined by a certain context which makes it clear to us what 'self' really is?

Our schizophrenic nature allows us to identify with Evil so that our 'true self' becomes a 'self' born from the Lie, and it allows us to identify with Good so that our 'self' can be saved and restored in Yahshua to a 'true self', a 'self' which is the result of the properties of 'self' which YHWH created, a 'self' rooted in and being an expression of YHWH.

Identifying with YHWH in Yahshua restores us to our true self, and that is the only context where a slogan such as 'being true to yourself' begins to make sense.

In all other cases positive sounding phrases such as the ones I mentioned are just part of a parcel of the Lie, false tactics designed to lead us astray on a path which has the appearance of being positive only because Darkness covers the true destiny of where the path is leading to.

The 'self' is a very strange phenomenon.

We have different identities within us we can identify with, thus turning an identity into our 'true self'.

Apparently there is something greater than the 'self' making the choice to identify with a 'self'.

This greater component is the Soul connected to the Spirit as well as the Body.

As a result of the input of the Spirit and the Body we make a choice in our Soul to believe in one or the other, and this choice causes the Soul to dress up in the chosen 'self', thus merging with and becoming the 'self'.

We experience a convergence of different dimensions, existing both in the physical AND the spiritual dimension, and this is the construct which makes it possible for two basic and mutually exclusive identities to exist in the consciousness of our Soul, the conscious link to Heaven and Earth.

It chooses an identity based on the input it receives, and it becomes the identity, the 'self'.

If that 'self' is corrupt and nothing but an artificial vehicle for 'non-existence', or 'Evil', the 'Lie', then the Soul is captured in that vehicle, and because it merged with the vehicle of Evil (it thereby became Evil, non-existence which only can have an appearance of existence due to the energy given to its instruction code), it suffers Destruction.

This is the Death of the Soul, something which Yahshua warned for when He instructed us not to fear those who can kill the Body yet have no power beyond the Flesh, but rather to fear Him who can destroy the Body and the Soul in Gehenna.

Likewise, if that 'self' is restored and a vehicle for YHWH's Ruach, the Source of Goodness, Truth, then the Soul merges with that vehicle and thus becomes a manifestation of eternal Life, since it has aligned itself with the Source of eternal Life, YHWH.

So, among the many 'selves' there is one 'true self'.

Adam used to have one 'true self', but after he sinned, the shock of the trauma split his Soul into 'two selves'.

The 'Evil self' processes and perpetuates Evil, and the 'Good self' processes and perpetuates Good.

We are born in a Body predisposed to draw our Soul into the identification with the 'artificial self of Evil', yet the presence of our conscience, the 'real and true self of Good', is designed to draw us back to our 'true self' so that we may find Salvation from the 'false self of Evil' which resulted from the first trauma.

The journey to know YHWH is the journey to recovery and restoration of that true self, because only in YHWH we can find our true self, since He is Truth.

Unfortunately the Dark Exploiters of mankind have turned this world into an ongoing commercial for the 'false self'.

Music artists bend over backwards in their attempts to hypnotize the masses into the embrace of a 'false self', receiving fake pearls and false mirrors from their Dark Masters as rewards given to the monkeys which fail to recognize the things of true, lasting worth.

Invariably YHWH's children are the misfits in this world because of their failure to BECOME the false self.

There always is something in them which remains incompatible with the many 'false selves' which the Prince of Darkness promotes.

Against all odds they grow where they should perish, become stronger where they ought to be weakened, they live on where they should have been killed or where they ought to have killed themselves.

This is the one thing the Evil One hates above all other things, that regardless of how he chooses to deal with YHWH's own, whether he torments them or covers them in material wealth, somehow none of his strategies seem to yield the desired end result in the long term.

Even worse, everything the Evil One does ends up strengthening YHWH's children so that he turns himself into Heaven's useful idiot through his plans and schemes to steal their Souls.

So, be true to your TRUE self, love YHWH, embrace His Yahshua, and you will become a source of eternal frustration for the Evil One as you grow into a source of eternal joy for our dear Father YHWH.
He delights in His children when they learn to overcome and persist in their love for Him.

How to Create a Corrupt Conscience

In the previous post I have mentioned an example of how a false or corrupted conscience can be created through stresses and our reaction to those stresses.

A wrong reaction which turns us into an extension of the purpose and force acting through those stresses gives rise to an inner conflict with our conscience.

This conflict expresses itself in the manifestation of guilt, fear and shame, and the presence of those feelings, which are the result of the way our Body translates the signals of our conscience, lends itself as a tool of manipulation in the hands of the Evil One.

He can use the presence of those feelings and suggest to us ways to compensate for those feelings.

When we accept the suggestions of compensation, we are creating a false, corrupted conscience where the original feelings of guilt, fear and shame are used as fuel which keeps the engine of the corrupted conscience running.

We become a prisoner of the suggestions for compensation, and thereby prisoner of the ones pushing the buttons which activate the false conscience.

The lever which creates a false conscience is the choice we make in our Soul to accept a suggestion.

The moment we accept the suggestion planted in our minds to compensate for where we went wrong is the moment we are corrupting our conscience and building a false version.

There are other ways to create a false conscience, yet they have in common that all of them owe their existence to the choice we make in our Soul to accept suggestions leading to the formation of a false conscience, or a corrupted conscience.

Allow me to give you another example.

I think that there is no other commandment which lent itself for abuse so well as the commandment to tithe.

This tithing commandment presents the con-artist with an excellent tool to exert psychological pressure in order to enrich himself.

After all, give and you will receive, so if you give all your money to preachers, evangelists, prophets, teachers, apostles-and-what-not, then you will receive back your investment with interest, isn't that right?

And so you find yourself facing a prophet telling you that it would be good for you to let him share in your blessings by donating your blessings (which always translates as money in the minds of the wolves) to this poor prophet.

To keep your hands shut and refrain from donating your money would be equal to robbing YHWH of the tithes you are commanded to give.

Or, you are facing an evangelist sending you photos by email of all those poor orphans and widows he is helping, and he is begging you to send money so that he can continue his support for the orphans and widows.

What you don't know is how this prophet not only supports his 'ministry' with your money, but also leads a very comfortable life which he is able to finance through the contributions from those who donate.

What the evangelist is not telling you is how he has a very pleasant bank account and a big house financed by the 'generosity of those who wanted to help the ones in need'.

These are ploys designed to manipulate you into creating a false conscience.

After all, if you withhold your money, you are robbing YHWH, you are shutting your eyes for the needs of those in need.

In your Soul you make the decision to accept a notion.

So, if you accept the notion that in the case of the prophet it would be robbery on your part to NOT donate your last penny to him, then if you keep your hands shut this notion would give rise to an artificially induced feeling of guilt, and the guilt would drive you to donate perhaps an even bigger amount.

It turns you into a compulsive giver, a slave which subsidizes the enterpreneurial efforts of the prophet or evangelist.

Guilt is what keeps con-men in business, and you should be very aware that the one area with the greatest percentage of con-men probably is the field of religion, because religion provides so many effective psychological tools tor manipulate people into donating money to religious exploiters.

Not that EVERYONE who asks for money automatically is insincere and a con-artist, but MANY of those found in religion (dare I say almost everyone who turns YHWH into a holy moneymaker?) are indeed leeches in search of the content of your wallet.

They succeed by enticing you to accept their notions and thereby create a conscience which turns you into a slave of their cause, and that will never bring about any blessings whatsoever.

I understand all too well how people with a sincere heart can be suckered into the leeching game, because, after all, if you love YHWH, you WANT to do Good, you WANT to help others, you WANT to stretch out your hand to orphans and the poor.

Yet there is a densely populated religious layer consisting of leeches who see themselves as religious entrepreneurs working in God's service, and they feel that since the laborer is worth his wages (another ploy they have accepted for themselves to compensate for any remnant of a true conscience making them feel guilty), you should support them with your money because they provide you with a religious service, and the more money they are able to glean from you, the more successful they are in the Kingdom of Heaven.

Well, I have news for those hard workers in YHWH's Kingdom: quite the contrary.

I have a question for the vampiric prophets-and-what-not: why can't you support yourself by getting a decent job, and simply give for the sake of giving just as YHWH gives freely?

Why do you feel the need to quote verses in order to create a false conscience in people which renders them into a compulsive giver to your cause, a mechanism which will never in all eternity yield any blessing for anyone?

The money you harvest through your manipulation are coals of fire you heap on your own head.

But you don't see it that way, do you?

You will find out soon enough though what status you have in the Yahshua's Kingdom.

So be careful of the wolves quoting Bible verses in support of the little empire they created.

They seek to manipulate you so that you become a compulsive donator driven by a false conscience.

It's better that you give that money to your wife, your husband, your children, or simply buy something for yourself rather than financing another trip to Hawaii for religious merchants who serve Mammon rather than YHWH.

Yes, it's good to keep your eyes open to those with real needs, but if I were you I would steer clear from the many prophets and evangelists seeking to turn you into their source of income.

They get richer while you end up giving your last penny, and when you are left with nothing they will not hesitate to tell you that 'there must be some hidden sin in your life which keeps you from being blessed'.

Not only that, but you are robbed of your freedom and reduced to a slave of the con-man's enterprial efforts if you accept his ploys and thus create a false conscience locking you into his grip.

It's a cruel game the leeches love to play at your expense.

I know you may feel torn over the issue, after all, it is not good to look the other way and ignore those in need.

But I tell you that it is better to KEEP your money than to give it to those who build their own empires by means of your donations.

After all, your donations to a religious merchant means he can stay in business and create more victims, and thinking yourself to be blessing those in need you actually end up supporting an exploitation game and the wolves running the show.

So beware of the religious merchants and their merchandize.

Any prophet selling you his prophecy is not a real prophet, and you might as well buy a nice CD or a new lawnmower instead of wasting your time and money on his end-times garbage.

Yes, the topic of the end-times apocalypse tends to grab people's attention, so any ambitious merchant desiring to be blessed with material wealth should be offering something pertaining to the end of times and the return of Jesus.

Make a big deal out of the promotion of the book and/or DVD as being the ultimate revelation about the end-times scenario, and who knows, you might actually be able to afford a second home in Barbados.

This is how YHWH is pimped by those pretending to speak and work on His behalf, and I tell you, when He will act, the wolves will howl, only this time it will not be out of joy over getting a second home on a tropical island.

Don't support and subsidize the wolves.

If you don't know what to do, do nothing and ask YHWH, and wait until you do know how to act, what to do.

Don't be rushed into being a compulsive giver, because there is no blessing in it, quite the contrary.

The Duality of Conscience

YHWH endowed us with a spiritual knowing of what is Good, a spiritual intimacy with Good.

This knowing is the result of the part of the Soul connected to our Spirit, and it is capable of expressing itself on a physical level in the form of uncomfortable feelings of guilt, fear and shame if our identity stands in contrast with what is Good.

We experience this as 'being wrong and suffering for it'.

There is a reason why we experience guilt, fear and shame when we go against a pure conscience.

In our Body the identity of Sin matures as we grow into adults, and we keep adding Sin to Sin.

Our Sins form a collective of memories together with registry settings which cause the release chemicals in our Body.

Those chemicals cause us to experience emotions and feelings connected to the memory of the Sin so that the thoughts or memories of Sin can express themselves as a physical reality by means of this release of chemicals.
This collective of memories contains triggers which activate (part of) this collective, and we experience this as 'being tempted in certain areas where we have sinned before'.
Not all temptation to Sin is the result of active interference of Demon Spirits, as a matter of fact, most of the time we are tempted by our own 'weaknesses'.

Just as our Body is set up to function as a vehicle for the identity of Evil, our Spirit still contains the knowledge of the identity of Good.

Our Soul is connected to both the Body and the Spirit and experiences the input of both.

This is the reason why we experience Dualism in our Soul: the conflicting input we receive in the Soul from the Body vs. the Spirit.

YHWH is Light and Goodness, and there is no Darkness or Evil in Him.

Since the principle of Dualism caused Creation to split up in a part of Good and a part which is not-Good, or Evil (Spiritual Darkness), those who identify with Evil will experience the Light of YHWH as pain and agony.

It is not really YHWH inflicting pain and agony, but the pain and agony are the result of the identification with Evil, and because of that, the properties of Evil cause those who identify with it to experience YHWH's Goodness as pain and agony.

We experience the reaction of Evil against YHWH's Light when we identify with Evil.

We are subject to an internal Dualism because we carry two mutually exclusive identities within us: the identity of Good, and the identity of Evil, and in our Soul we make the choice which of those two identities we want to align ourselves with.

Whenever we sin, our conscience sends out an alarm signal.

The function of the alarm signal simply is this: 'you have ventured across the border into the zone of non-existence, come back into the realm of existence in YHWH'.

This alarm signal in essence is not painful, nor does it bring about shame or guilt.

The reason why we experience the alarm signal of our conscience as guilt, fear and shame is due to our Body which carries the identity of Evil, and which expresses this identity of Evil as a physical reality in the form of emotions and feelings.
It is like an experience-filter which provides our Soul with the input of this experience.

So whenever our conscience sends out the alarm signal, our Body - being Evil- experiences this signal of the Light as pain and agony, or, guilt, fear and shame, and it expresses this guilt, fear and shame in the feelings and emotions of the Body.

Since our Soul is an integral part of the physical Body as well as the Spirit, it experiences the signal of our conscience through the response of our Body in our Soul as guilt, fear and shame.

The reason is simply due to the fact that our physical Body is an instrument for Evil and experiences any Spiritual Light as pain and destruction.
The feelings of guilt, fear and shame are the dominant reality for the Soul, because we have been plastered in a Body which is part of a reversed reality of Evil, so that the true order of reality, which is first the spiritual or metaphysical reality, and then the lower carnal reality of Earth, is reversed and we experience our Earth existence as the dominant reality.
It is only after experiencing YHWH's Salvation that a shift begins to grow in our Soul from the carnal identity to the spiritual identity so that the spiritual reality begins to dominate where before the carnal identity ruled over our Soul.

YHWH gave us our conscience in order to preserve us, so that we would not fall all the way into the pit of Evil through our Sins, but at least we would know a contrasting reality of Goodness in our Soul caused by the presence of the conscience.

It is like a guardian preserving and protecting us against being completely devoured by the black hole of Evil.

Our conscience has a secondary function: it enables us to identify with YHWH's Light, so that through obedience to our conscience and identifying with it we are enabled to identify with YHWH's Light in others, especially in the One He sent to deliver us from Evil.

If we learn to embrace our conscience in spite of the uncomfortable feelings it conjures up in our Body, then this choice we make in our Soul is a choice to identify with YHWH's Light, like a beacon lighting up the way back home.

Our reaction to our conscience becomes a pointer on the road of faith enabling us to identify with the Light of YHWH's Salvation in Yahshua.

Unfortunately the emotions of guilt, fear and shame we experience in our Body can be used as tools in the hands of the Fallen One to bind us in slavery, where we seek to make up for where we went wrong.

The problem is that we cannot make up for any Sin we are guilty of.

The only One who can remove the obstacle we created is YHWH.

Think of it this way: sinning is like multiplying a '1' with '0'.

The end result is that you become '0'.

Once you are a '0', no matter how many times you multiply '0' with another number, you remain '0'.

For you to be restored to being a '1' again, a '1' needs to be given (added) to you.

Evil in essence is the '0' of Creation, because YHWH is the '1', and Evil is everything which YHWH is not.

So, if YHWH is existence, Evil is non-existence, or '0'.

If YHWH then is existence, or '1', the only way for you to be restored to being '1' again after you sinned is when YHWH restores you by giving you His '1'.

And He gave us His '1' in Yahshua, so that through our belief in Him the '1' of a renewed Spirit is given to us.

The Adversary tries to keep us trapped in the cycle of shame, fear and guilt by dangling carrots in front of us which suggest we can atone for what we have done by compensating for it.

He uses the emotions of guilt, fear and shame as fuel for the motor which keeps us trapped in a cycle driven by those forces of guilt, fear and shame, first consciously, and later sub-consciously when we compensate and thus obscure the root causes acting as compulsive forces.

I have discussed this phenomenon in the article 'The Trapdoor' where you also will find a short, condensed example of this process of hypnotic conditioning.

The problem is that the presence of the emotions of guilt, fear and shame gives the Evil One the tools to create a false conscience, a pseudo-conscience which is a corrupted variation on our original conscience.
It is placed over the original conscience liked a colored lens.

He simply relates the memory of guilt, fear and shame in our Brains to concepts he suggested, so that we seek to save ourselves from our guilt, fear and shame by conforming to the concepts the Evil One suggested.

When we conform to these false concepts, hypnotic suggestions placed in our minds through conditioning at the hands of the Fallen Ones, we experience a false kind of salvation from guilt, fear and shame, a salvation which locks us tighter into the grip of the Fallen One.

This is one reason why one conscience differs from another: the presence of a false, manipulated conscience.

Listening to one's conscience is good if the conscience has not been substituted with a corrupted pseudo-conscience, but listening to the conscience which is the result of manipulation is an Evil thing.
Another reason why the conscience of one person differs from another is due to the fact that the purity of a conscience is a scale with different degrees.
To the degree that our carnal mind in the Body is able to cast a veil over our conscience is the degree to which we are lacking in purity.

Because of the existence of the false conscience, not everyone who listens to conscience equals a Good person, because one person's conscience is another's absurdity, or worse, another's lack of conscience.

That is why the new pope's suggestion that those who do not believe but follow their conscience would be forgiven for their sins is an absurdity at best.

This pope further added that, "There is sin, also for those who have no faith, in going against one's conscience.

Listening to it and abiding by it means making up one's mind about what is Good and Evil".

Aside from the fact that Evil and Sin are not defined by OUR standards, but by the definition YHWH bestowed on them, going against a false conscience which suggests you must do something to get rid of fear, guilt or shame is actually a GOOD thing, because it means you stop giving fuel to the bondage to the false conscience and thus to Evil.

Guilt, shame, fear as the result of an accusing conscience can only be resolved by YHWH, and instead of seeking to compensate, our first course of action should be to endure these feelings and the inner turmoil they cause, and to put these feelings before YHWH asking Him how we should deal with them, whether or not there is something we need to say or do, or not.

The pope's definition of Good and Evil is Luciferian.

It means that whatever you think to be Good IS Good, and whatever you deem Evil IS Evil, and by following your own concept of what is Good you will be saved.

Thus you become a god, defining Good and Evil on your own terms as well as inventing your own entrance ticket into Heaven.

And isn't that the old lie which the Adversary dangled as a carrot in front of Man, that we can become gods unto ourselves, making up our own minds about Good and Evil and creating our own paradigm of what is Good or Evil?

That is exactly what the Evil One has done, and he seeks to seduce us to follow his example into the destruction of Gehenna.

Following your conscience is Good for the person with a pure heart, but it is an abomination for the person held prisoner by a false conscience, an invisible mental prison created by the Evil One through the manipulation of guilt, fear and shame.

In the previous article I mentioned the example of a woman who compensated for her wrong reaction to a careless driver of a red corvette through food, and thus set herself up to become a prisoner of this hypnotic suggestion placed in her mind through her wrong reaction to stress.

Imagine that, instead of eating a snack after the incident, the woman had met the driver, and driven by feelings of guilt she would have compensated by being overly nice to this driver in an attempt to make up for the guilt.

This would set a conditioning pattern in motion which consists of seeking the approval of those who aggravate and stress her in order to compensate for the alarm signal of her conscience.

The hypnotic conditioning would act like a false conscience which suggests to the woman how she is able to create her own salvation from the accusing finger of her conscience, thus turning her into a prisoner of the false, corrupted conscience.

Not only that, but the false, corrupted conscience would turn her into a slavish people pleaser seeking the approval of those who abuse her.

Even if this woman finds Salvation in Yahshua, the conditioning pattern present in her memory bank will cause her to be bothered and under attack of her own mind whenever the memories in the network of neurons, -which are part of the conditioning-, are activated.

After finding Salvation in Yahshua any conditioning pattern becomes a legacy of Sin we have to learn to deal with by meeting this legacy in the right way.

If we do not act for or against the legacy by either indulging in it or by suppressing it, we do not give it energy, and by depriving it of energy the memories and their links become weaker.

Yes, Salvation is not just a one-time event after which we suddenly find ourselves in Heaven, no, quite the contrary, Salvation is a process uncovering patterns of Sin, thus allowing us to be released from the stronghold of these patterns.

This is what is implied by the expression 'to work out our Salvation'.

The patterns of Sin which used to imprison us and reduce us to being slaves to Evil become tools by means of which YHWH carves out our character and makes us strong after we have accepted Him as our Father, and His Yahshua as our Salvation.

It is the hypnotic conditioning through the pressure of cruelty and injustice which accounts for the Stockholm syndrome where a victim of hoodlums is turned into a lover and supporter of the hoodlums, thus actually ending up becoming a hoodlum, carrying the Evil identity the corruptors planted inside his/her mind.

This victim now has an Evil, corrupt conscience which keeps him locked into the spell of his saviors, the corruptors.

And this is why the pope's comment in the most favorable case testifies of the power of too much caffeine, an accidental slip of the tongue, or a lack of understanding, and in the worst case it testifies of the mind of a deceiver, a NWO puppet, and either way I'd be very careful with him.

All too often a false smile serves to cover a pit of Darkness beneath.

Listening to a conscience does not necessarily make a person good, because the conscience can be corrupted in the most detrimental way when we are held captive by a false, pseudo-conscience, one which was created through hypnotic conditioning.

The process of Salvation purifies and restores our conscience.

Salvation draws our Soul back into the restored Spirit so that instead of being turned into an extension of an Evil Body it is renewed, and becomes once again an extension of the Spirit ruling over the Body.

That which makes a false conscience possible is the Body and the way our carnal mind can be re-routed to misinterpret the signals sent out by our conscience.

When the emphasis in our Soul shifts from the carnal to the spiritual as a result of YHWH's Salvation process, the conditioning patterns operating in the realm of the carnal lose their power, thus releasing us to experience the conscience without our Body-mind compelling us to make up for moments when we fall.

As we learn to walk in harmony with YHWH, we no longer experience the presence of a conscience, because we are one with it.

And of course, walking in unity with YHWH has its price.

You become an alien in this world, but then again, you who belong to YHWH ALWAYS have been an alien in this strange land, from the day you were conceived and the Demons learned about your entrance into the Earth plane.

From that very day onward you became their target, and this demonic target practice will last until the very day you leave Earth, or until Yahshua comes to chase the Demons away.

The purer you become, and the greater the intimacy with Truth, the more this world will stand out to you as completely alien, and life in this alien world will seem like an exercise in futily.
Nihilism and Dadaism actually portray the fallen Satanic nature of this world very accurately, because without YHWH everything becomes meaningless and an exercise in absurdity.

The only way anything can have meaning is when we put YHWH first and make everything stand in service of our devotion to YHWH.

'Seek first the Kingdom of Heaven, and all things will be added', remember?

Sometimes the blanket of Evil cast over this world is so thick that it oppresses my Soul and causes suffering.
Under this blanket the world I see and experience is an exercise in futility, a chasing after wind, and I find myself unable to muster the energy to participate in this mad folly leading from nothing into nothing.
It makes me feel like an alien who landed on the wrong planet, especially when I can see so many people in the grip of Shadows without being aware of it.
They move to and fro whenever the Shadows move the strings on their costumes, unaware that the energy they invest in their efforts is a sacrifice of Life-force to their Dark overlords.

It is only when my dearest Father YHWH is there that I can find joy even under the most adverse circumstances, YHWH alone can give the meaning my Soul and Spirit thirst for in this desert wasteland of Earth sighing under the oppressive exploitation of the Satan and his Evil cronies.
And I very much long for the day when He will come to chase the Shadows back to their dark dreamworld so that we can be free and enjoy the Spring which Yahshua will bring us.

Have a blessed Shabbat, and persist in your devotion to YHWH.

The Evil One uses pressure and stresses in his attempts to make YHWH look like a liar who does not fulfill promises, but do not believe the deception.

YHWH cannot lie, and He always fulfills what He promised.

It's just that He works according to His own timetable, and He always has His reasons for allowing pressure and stresses of the Evil One into our lives.

They serve to strengthen our faith and draw out a character which endures and persists in its love for YHWH.

Don't forget, prayer is our mighty weapon of war, and it is supported and given ammunition through our love for and devotion to YHWH.

When the Evil Deceiver lashes his whip over our backs, our best and most effective form of resistance is through learning to endure and persisting in faith and love for YHWH.

That is when we turn the Fallen One, who sought to  enslave us to his Evil by turning our circumstances and feelings against us, into YHWH's useful idiot, a mere tool serving YHWH's purpose in his quest to make us extensions of his own Evil purpose.

Don't react on the level of the Evil One, fighting him with his own weaponry, because he is a skilled warrior.
You can never win from him by returning hatred with hatred, anger with anger, because whenever he is able to trigger your response he has already won before you act on the trigger.
He seeks to turn you into his extension through your reactions where you return Evil for Evil.
Focus on YHWH and look beyond the Evil One as if he does not exist.

David did not conquer Goliath by adopting his armament and fighting Goliath on his own terms.
No, David did not look at Goliath, but in faith he looked beyond Goliath.
He acted in faith, letting his faith rule his skills and brains so that he might be an instrument in the hands of YHWH and prevail over Goliath's Evil brawn.
Just as David conquered through faith and obedience to YHWH rather than responding on Goliath's level, and he cut off the head of Goliath, Yahshua conquered the Evil One, and He will return to cut off the head of the armies of Evil and thus slay the Dragon.
If we want to be victorious like David, we have to learn NOT to rise to the Adversary's challenge, but to look in faith to YHWH and act on His instructions, focusing our entire being on Him so that He can use us to bring the Adversary's pathetic attempts to destroy us to naught.

Be conquerors in faith and go for the gold, that you may be rewarded with the crown of Life.